Could it be...

One name has been creeping up a few times over the last few weeks. First it was suggested by one of my best friends, then it was suggested on a message board and it just recently came up again.

I finally caved and suggested it to B and guess what.... HE LIKES IT!!!!! What the heck! The man who never likes anything that I suggest.... Holy crap!

So, #2 it looks like has another potential name if it is a girl -- Aubrey.

OMG. Although #2, you still need to stay put for another 36 hours, please. Mommy loves you but I still need a few more hours.

Still Pregnant!

YEAH -- I am very happy to report that #2 has cooperated thus far and decided to stay put, right where he/she belongs. Don't worry little one, Mommy will be asking you to leave shortly, but you have at least 3 more days of being confined in what apparently is too small of a space for you.

Anyways, most recent news is that #2 is sleeping a lot and a biophysical profile gave an estimated weight as of today at 8lbs, 11oz.

Oh -- and don't be fooled. That isn't 8lbs, 11oz at birth, that is right now, today at 38w, 1d or 37w, 5d depending on whose calendar you are looking at. Yep, gonna have another big one. Oh well, my "proven pelvis" and I will get through this just fine, but thank God I am going med-free or I would be ripping stem to stern!

Oh and I woke up with a cold this morning? Shouldn't there be a limit on the number of illnesses one should be subjected to while pregnant? B and I are being very cute though -- 1500 miles apart and we still share the same illness. *awe, how sweet?* Thank you once again to daycare, germ center for the newest illness to invade our house. We appreciate it!

I am scared!

I don't know why, but all of a sudden it hit me that B very well may miss the birth of this child and that scares the crap out of me. When I agreed with him that he should be with his family, I kept thinking in the back of my mind that this kid will hold out until he was back, but now I am not so sure. I don't know why all of a sudden I think I am going to have this baby in the next 5 days, but I do. I mean I feel like I just KNOW that this baby is coming sooner than later.

Any ideas on how to get this baby to stay put? I am staying off my feet as much as possible and praying that this one just stays put, but other than that, what can I really do right?

5 days... Just stay put for 5 more days.

The quiet

Do you know what it is like at your house when you are 38w pregnant and your husband and son are away? QUIET. Eerily quiet. Loney quiet. Miserable quiet.

I miss B and L. I just want to hug them more than anything, but at least B has MIL consulting me before any legal decisions are made. FILs kids are already doing the gimme gimmes. Why is it all about "what do I get" when there is a death? Two of his kids live not but 4 tenths of a mile away and guess what, they haven't come to the house YET but to get "stuff." And not just personal stuff -- they want to take his business property too! UUGH.

MIL is a very strong woman, but give the poor woman a break. She just lost the love of her life. Stop asking what is in it for you. Thank God I am not out there, I would be in labor already due to the stress of these people.

I recind my previous post

I am not done after all....

B's step father, my step father in law, who we love, adore, etc died unexpectantly today. He was on a tractor moving top soil and somehow rolled the tractor. He was lifelined to a trama center, was conscious for a while, but had to be put under to stablize his blood pressure since he was losing a lot of blood. Unfortunately, he died while in surgery and before ever waking up to say good-bye to my MIL (the most wonderful/caring woman in the world).

B and L flew to Chicago to be with the family, so #2 needs to just stay put for the next few days. Would it be the end of the world to go through labor on my own? No! But I don't know if B would ever get over missing the birth of his child.

Please, please, please stay put #2. You don't have a name, don't have a real room yet and mommy can only deal with so much in one week.

So, even though he is a Step father/step FIL should we consider using his name as a middle name? James is his first name and would be a cute girls middle name too.... Do you think the other FIL of mine would be offended?

I am DONE!

So far, I have convinced myself that this pregancy is so much easier than my pregnancy with L, and that I would be happy to keep this kid inside for as long as it wanted to stay. With L, I hit that wall -- the wall where you just want the kid OUT -- at about 35w. I started maternity leave at 37 weeks and L made his appearance at 38w, 5 days.

I am 37w, 5 days today. This kid is fully cooked and needs to vacate the premises. SOON! However, I am still getting up and working every day. Although apparently I am not putting in the hours that the co-irker wants me to (still at more than 50 billable hours a week, which means I am here in excess of 60! At 37 weeks!).

I know, I know. I am full term, but no where near my due date - blah blah blah. B reminds me EVERY DAMN DAY. You would think he would have learned from the 1st time around that reminding a woman that she could be pregnant for as much as 4 more weeks when she has mentally checked out is just MEAN.

Oh, and if it is a girl it still doesn't have a name, but I am not hating Lila as much this week (spelled that way instead of Lyla though, I think....). Gwen is a close second these days too. How would I differentiate between L (my boy) and L - Lila though??? Hmmm.

My baby... no longer a baby...

So, I came across Amalah's post yesterday about how Noah is getting big. As her son is just 2 months older than L, it really hit me how he isn't a baby anymore.

Then L had his 15m appointment yesterday. He has gained 14lbs since birth and grown 10 inches. That seems like a lot, but what really hit me were the most recent pictures of him.

Who took my angel away and replaced him with an adorable little boy?

One thing I hate about him growing up -- his poops are growing up too. BLECK! Morning sickness seems to be making a return and dirty diapers and I are just not getting along anymore.

Have I mentioned that I am now 37w pregnant, due any second and STILL NO NAME FOR A GIRL....

Just sayin'